Ana Jelnikar
angleščina
Vonj po čaju
Moj prijatelj je eksistencialist. Zbira kitajski porcelan
in japonske čajnike. Pri njem se pije najboljši čaj. Do
sekunde natančen. Mogoče ni prava ceremonija,
ampak v našem pitju, ko se razporedimo okoli mize,
je gotovo nekaj estetskega. Všeč mi je prizor, ko molčimo
in srkamo vonj po čaju. Vsi smo eksistencialisti. Najprej
se smejimo in šele potem rečemo: dobra šala. Tudi midva
bereva Šalamuna. Enkrat sva cele počitnice govorila: Jon
si riba? Riba sem. Kar naenkrat smo bili vsi na Hvaru.
Imam pa še drugega prijatelja, ki je budist. Enkrat sva
stala na meji med filozofijo in teologijo. Rekla sva: au, to je
ostro. Tu se urežeš. Mogoče bo on bral tibetanske skrite
tantre in se bomo potem lahko skupaj smejali na Šuštarju.
Drugič sva se hecala o praznini, kako zoprno hladna je
za naše hiše. On je rekel: najedel sem se modrosti. Zdaj
jemljem samo še z majhno žličko. Vse nas bo zavedlo.
Iz Nepala mi je Branko poslal sveto kravo.
Moral bi se že vrniti, ampak on je potepuh.
Dva moja prijatelja sta glasbenika. Eden mi piše s severa,
čeprav ima vzhodno ime. Lao zi je legenda.
Drugi je basist. Mogoče bo kdaj govoril s Peacockom.
Na Tales of another so stopinje bele. Jarrett se pogovarja
z angeli. Tudi duhovi, če hočete. Ko govoriva o glasbi,
nikakor ne veva od kod prihaja in kam gre. Sigurno pa ni
v notah. O tem se strinjava. In jaz vem iz lastne izkušnje.
Neki moj prijatelj dela v tiskarni. Midva se peljeva s kolesi.
Včasih sploh ne govoriva. Mogoče on ne ve, da sem pošten.
Da se odkrivam, če mi je vroče. Ker se bojim, da bo padel,
sem mu podaril Plezalno tehniko. Knjigo iz leta 1950.
Enkrat pejmo vsi v Medvode, na čaj, da rečemo eno
o naših usodah. Nekaj tenkega nas veže. Grom je rekel,
da je dober komad kot čik gumi, ki se razteguje in širi
v vse smeri, a ne pretrga. Zdi se mi, da je z nami isto.
Na elastiki se gugamo in pazimo, da nismo pregrobi.
Ko je vroče, čakamo, da se shladi. Tudi pihamo
in naš veter dela valove na robovih porcelana.
Nekaj tenkega nas veže. Važno je da poči,
a se ne pretrga.
Iz: Dve Zimi
Ljubljana: Aleph, 1999
Avdio produkcija: 2008 Literaturwerkstatt Berlin
The Scent of Tea
My friend is an existentialist. He collects china
and Japanese teapots. You get the best cup of tea at his place.
Steeped to perfection. It may not be a true ceremony
but in our drinking, when we sit around the table,
there is definitely something aesthetic. I like the scene
when we keep quiet and sip the scent of tea.
All of us are existentialists. First we laugh, only then do we say
that’s a good joke. The two of us also read Šalamun.
Once we spent the whole summer saying: Jonah
are you a fish? I am a fish. We were all on the island Hvar.
I have another friend who is a Buddhist. We were standing
on the border between philosophy and theology. We said: ouch, it’s
sharp. You can cut yourself here. Perhaps he will read the Tibetan secret
tantras and then we can all have a laugh together on Shoemakers’ Bridge.
Another time we joked about nothingness, how horribly cold it is
for our homes. He said: I am sated with wisdom. From now on
I shall take only with a teaspoon. It will lead us all astray.
Branko sent me a sacred cow from Nepal.
He should’ve come back by now, but he is a wanderer.
Two of my friends are musicians. One writes to me from the North
though he has an Eastern name. Lao Zi is a legend.
The other is a bass player. He may speak to Peacock one day.
On Tales of Another footprints are white. Jarrett is talking to
angels. Spirits too, if you will. When we discuss music
we never know where it comes from and where it goes. But for sure
it is not in the notes. This much we agree on. And I know from personal experience.
Another friend of mine works in printing. The two of us ride bicycles together.
Sometimes we don’t speak at all. Perhaps he doesn’t know when I am decent.
That I uncover myself when I am hot. Because I was afraid that he’d fall
I gave him The Climbing Skills. A book from 1950.
Let’s all go to Medvode for some tea some time to say a thing or two
about our destiny. Something fine binds us. Grom said
a good score is like a stick of gum that stretches and spreads
to all sides but doesn’t snap. It seems to be the same with us.
We are swinging on rubber, careful not to be too rough.
When it is hot we wait for it to cool. We blow too,
and our wind makes ripples on the edges of china.
Something fine binds us. The important thing is that it bursts
but doesn't snap