Jovanka Uljarević

черногорский

Zoran Paunović

английский

Putovanje

Nijesam ovdje gdje me vidite
A nijesam ni tamo gdje me znaju
Tamo mi je ovdje
Ovdje mi je daleko

To vam je kao kad vam u ludnici
Ludi kažu da ste ludi
I vi ih zovete ludima
Pitajući se jesu li zbilja mogli otkriti vašu ludost
Ili je to samo nenormalnost koju suprotstavljaju svojoj

I nama su dali ime
Da bi mogli da nas zovu bez značenja

Bila sam kod psihijatra
Bila je “ona” i nije me zvala imenom
Bila sam mala
I ona me popela na prozor svoje sobe
Da bi mi pokazala gnijezdo golubova
Dopalo mi se koliko je bilo ružno
Rekla sam joj da je lijepo
Odlično je pamtim
I taj njen izraz kad mi govori da sam normalna
Mislim da smo se razumjele

© Jovanka Uljarević
Аудиопроизводство: Haus für Poesie / 2017

A Journey

I am not here where you see me
or there where they know me
There is here for me
And here is too far

It is like when madmen in a madhouse
tell you that you are mad
And you call them mad
Asking yourself whether they could really reveal your madness
Or is it only an insanity they want to confront with their own

We have also been given a name
So that they could call us with no meaning

I went to see a shrink
He was a “she” and did not call me by name
I was so small
And she mounted me to the window in her room
To show me some pigeons’ nest
It was so ugly that I liked it
I said it was beautiful
I remember her perfectly
And the look on her face while telling me that I was sane
I think we understood each other.

translated by: Zoran Paunović