FATHER
today
you
had
to come
to this city
 
YOU had
to come
to ME TODAY
 
but
 
Father
I have waited
for you to come today to this city
and take me home
 
come earlier
my brother said
today
father must come
 
today
my friend left
and I
waited you
to come
father
 
you know I want
my father to die
my father is sick
and you know
I would like father
to kill himself
 
today when everybody quarrelled
I have spoken and everybody laughed
you know I said
I want my father to die
 
sun made me sweat like an animal
I was in the desert and I had not even seen
camels nobody
I was alone
I couldn’t even dream about some exhausted people
that pass through sand as in the novels of Fowles
father i don’t know even why
but  didn’t feel bad
I knew you had to come
 
father I found out
that you got really sick
somebody would have said that
you’re gonna die
you’ve got kidneys disease and
today when I went to the balcony to smoke
the sky the earth have
seemed to me as a big unbearable kidney
with stones instead of stars
 
you are
sick
and I
can’t
do
anything-anything
you better
die father
than this
 
 
Dante was travelling through hell
purgatory heaven to get
to simply
look
at the sky with stars
And you have to die
father
 
my streets got dark
like some thoughts
today all my thoughts are about you
yesterday I wanted to tell a woman
 
I loved you and I will always
love you
nobody would never
be able to change this regarding you
neither I             nor you
 
but this lost
thoughts
were not for her
 
and
 
I get off the trolley
my feet start
running
actually it all depends
of you
I don’t know if you came or you didn’t
but I want to get
to open the door faster
and although you were always very calm
today I want to open the door
loosen my hands
 
father I want
to open the door
and tell you