Jan Kaus

estonian

Adam Cullen

english

KUIDAS KIRJELDADA ARMASTUST?

Ma loodan, et suren varem kui tema.
Aga mis siis, kui see muudab ta sama kurvaks, kui oleksin mina?
Võib-olla oleks siiski parem, kui ta sureb enne mind.
Aga siis on muidugi mul endal väljakannatamatult halb.
Pekki.
Head lahendust siit ei paista.

© Jan Kaus
Audio production: Eesti Kirjanduse Teabekeskus [Estonian Literature Centre]

HOW TO DESCRIBE LOVE?

I hope to die before she does.
But what if that makes her just as sad as I’d be?
Maybe it’d be better if she dies before me, instead.
But then, of course, I’d just feel unbearably awful.
Shit.
There’s no good choice to be had.

Translated by Adam Cullen