writing to you is like writing on a blank page which magically will soak in all the
words and become blank again. So there is only blank .Writing to you is addressing
a blank within me. Tracing a line from your forehead down to your lips and then to
your heart which is warm and cruel like the enigma of oxymoron and I want to nestle there like sweet poison, corked and carefully preserved.
But can one learn to live ? Can living be learnt from experiment and sameness,
passion and indifference, art and craft ?
Last years words belong to last years language, frozen and dried and the lilies that I had planted had withered too.
Should I invent a new language?
I want to count the moles on your face, breathe deeply the honey mint of your breath and then go off to sleep peacefully.
In a moment we are in words and language, in a moment we are outside words. We are
fusing each other.
Be my nest…
Using the quick-option reply let me say your words reach out and touch me. Your word
have tongue .Word-tongue. Your word have teeth. Word-teeth. The tongue caresses the
teeth bite. Your mail makes the evening smile softly at me and there is silence like the intense white heat . I seem to contract, to shrink and dwindle to a small colourless dot,
scarcely larger than hundreds of dots on your computer screen. I feel in my bones a sharp ache of the coming frost.
We live in each moment and in each we learn to live. What are we expecting? Perhaps,
something, perhaps, nothing at all. We return to the same dialogue only to find it decayed.
But then we do return,don’t we?
What you desire or I , is perhaps, already a memory by the time you open your inbox.
For you, let me be a thin line between dreaming and wakening.
lives in: Kolkata, India
Sharmila Ray is a poet and non-fiction essayist writing in English, anthologised and featured in India and abroad. Her poems, short stories and non-fictional essays have appeared in various national and international magazines and journals since the late 1990s. She is an Associate Professor and Head of the Department of History at City College, Kolkata.
She was on the English Board of Sahitya Akademi. She was the editor of The Journal (Poetry Society India) and looked after a column ‘Moving Hand Writes’ (Times of India, Kolkata. ). To popularize poetry she has experimented her poems with sarod (Indian string instrument) and the result is a CD— Journey Through Poetry And Music (Cozmik Harmony). She has performed this at IIC, New Delhi and at the American Centre, Kolkata. Another CD with music is Hello (STM Cassette). She has also performed with noted singer, director, actor Anjan Dutta- songs and poetry. She also curated an exhibition combining paintings and poems on natural calamity and violence, sponsored by Alliance Francaise, Calcutta and Indian Aluminium. Recently she staged a bilingual(English and Bengali) show with poet Tanmoy Chakraborty-Kolkata Are You Listening?-with poetry, music and video.
She has read her poems at various poetry festivals in India. She had been invited to International Struga Poetry Evenings in Macedonia, where she represented India, International poets and writers’ meet Hanoi, Vietnam and International Poets Meet in Kerala to share the stage with Ben Okri. She was the only poet writing in English from West Bengal to participate in VAK –the first poetry biennial held in New Delhi (2017). Her poems have been translated into Hindi, Bengali, Urdu, Manipuri, Slovene, Hebrew and Spanish. Currently she is working on a manuscript of non- fictional essays and poetry.
She has received award from Women’s Times and Green Tara Initiatives for poetry (2018).
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